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Thursday, June 30, 2005

Just now in the afternoon....i accompany my collegue to go tanjong pagar for an interview....this interview was a sudden one...cos someone from prudential called her up yesterday....and asked her to go for this interview which is for a management training programme at prudential.....their target was to train people for 2-3yrs...u will have a mentor and will go to all departments to learn the ropes....learn how the organisation works and managerial stuff...u will get paid during the training and after 2-3 yrs, you will be promoted to manager.....sounds like a good deal rite?But where got such a good deal.....u noe how they select people to go for the interview?they just pull out names from a database...who knows what database.....

But anyways, i went with her...and in the end was asked by the gal there to go for the interview! dun u think they are very casual abt it?is definitely not something gd lahz.....or they really need pple.....i dunno....is a coax or smth.....must be trying to rope pple in to sell insurance?i dun think u can become a manager so soon jus after a few yrs training...and the thing is she very vague abt the whole thing....she just asked qns...wana noe more abt me...sort of thing...i wasn't prepared at all...jus crap through the whole thing.....i dun think i will get selected...and even i am,i will not go....i find it quite dumb...i dun believe there's such a gd deal....the whole thing was just a crap....but the gal who interview me was quite chio....but i can sense that the gal is the kind where she would not show you her emotions easily....even she's irritated or she looks down on you, she still can smile at u so sweetly...abit like laughing tiger....xiao li chang dao.....

5:36 pm

Although i'm sick and tired of working....and i really need to have a week's break and do the stuff that i wana do...like go back cjc to collect my A level ceritificate...go out with my dearie girlfriends....go watch movies...go threading...stay at home and slack...watch tv...be with darling dear,go temple to return my prayers and go shopping with mummy with my hard earned CK Tangs vouchers!!! I realised i never really have a break since my A levels....i started working after 1 or 2 weeks after my A levels till now....WoW!!! It has really been a long long time...8 mths of "vacation"....

But i'm happy that i have some little surprises that will cheer me up and make my day.....Like for yesterday, darling dear called me at around 6.45pm when it is was drizzling and i was walking along boat quay..going to the bus stop...i was really shou mang jiao luan at that time....i was intending not to pick up....cos i got no free hand...with all my stuff and umbrella...i was saying who's calling me at this time....of cos i was surprised to see deardear's name to appear on my hp screen....and the 1st thing he said was, "HeLLooOOO....u wana meet me?i got night's out!" I went HuhZ???!!! I din expect i could meet darling dear...i was intending to go to optician...and go home for dinner.....But in the end, we still managed to meet at eunos.....and dear pei wo go my hse optician.....woO hOo....so happy to see him....=) We din meet for very long as he needs to go home and needs to book in soon...sighs...but no worries man....i'll see him soon....today is thur and tmr is FRI le!!!!!

I'm gonna start complaining again.....cos i jus got a call today from my OGL...got to know abt my OG....went to ntu website and check what do i need to bring....the 1st thing on the list was:

5 sets of clothes (be prepared to throw away at the end of camp)

I was like wAt tHE....i dun even have enuff clothes to start with...how to spare 5 sets to throw away??????tell me...tell me.....veri geks....dunno le...c hw.....Candy is jus not cut out for camps....sighs....

9:19 am

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

I dunno why...But i jus feel yucky now!!!!

ARGHZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11:51 am

Wanted to quit the job nxt fri..which is 8 july....I'm having camp on the 4,5,6 july....thought of working to the end of the week and then quit..I'm feeling very tired le....so sian of working world le...din managed to rest well these days...quite tired...But the replacement can only come in on the 18th july....so i die die still must work till 15 july...sighs....what to do...

11:40 am

Friday, June 24, 2005

Met cheryl dearie and levisha dearie today for lunch...Cos cheryl baby's birthday is this coming sun...but we are unable to meet on sun...so we met today instead...bought her a pair of earrings....and levisha got her a tweety bird cake from polar...quite nice....=)....But tooooo much cream le...where all three of us was complaining that we are putting on weight and stuff....but i dun see any fats on levisha.....lol....but she kept complaining that she do have alot of fats...and if she go for liposuction...we can make lots of soap out of her....me and cheryl nearly *pengz* le....I think that would be ME!!!!! not HER!!!

But anyways, i think i shld meet my dearie girlfriends more often...and shld meet them soon.....miss them sooooo much....all the gossips and stuff....candy can start yakking again...lol....

And darling dear booking out today....HURRAY!!!!!!

And my last day of work is 15 july....so call me out ks.....

LURVE YA!!!!!

6:20 pm

Thursday, June 23, 2005

I feel that i'm trapped in a box...the box is enclosed....and i'm alone in the box...is dark inside....and there's nothing inside the box except work...maybe the box used to contain more things....the box used to be brighter...with darling dear in the picture, with all my dearie girlfriends and my family in the picture too...the box is a representation of my world...

But now seems like the box only contains me and work..where has everyone and everything gone to? I'm not blaming anybody...is just that now my world evolves around this meaningless job...i'm really tired of it...i noe as compared to shiyun dearie..where she's working so hard...seems like i shld not complain so much....nt in the position to say tired...but this job really seems more and more meaningless and pointless..

Basically, everyday coming to work is really doing nothing much...the volume of work is not high....so most of the time i'm really free...to be honest with u...i'm actually playing games online...until i'm so sick of going online...until i dunno where can i go online...but of cos, all these have to be done discreetly..i'm still under supervision...

i still have to pretend i'm VERY BUSY....

People will say isn't that good?you get paid for doing nothing but playing games! What a great deal?Where to find this kind of deal?And shouldn't I be glad abt it?

I dunno...but i'm not happy at all....all these time working, it has slowly drown out my drive and passion for things...But I can't stop now...though is only a month more to school term starts...But I need the money...where everything in the university is about $$!!!! From the moment i received the freshmen guide...i'm starting to pay for things....

I only can see darling dear once or twice a week....

My dearie girlfriends are busy....

Even though i'm going home every night, but i dun seem to eat dinner with my daddy every night...And later on they will complain i din made the effort to eat dinner with them...

Precisely, I'm trapped in this dark box for sooo long....now when new things are coming in...i'm getting scared....i'm fearful...cos i have to make changes and adapt to the changes....suddenly the box is not enclosed anymore...is gradually opening up to a whole new world....suddenly, light tries to come in...to fill up this dark space...to fill up this world....how can anyone not be scared?how can anyone not be blinded by this sudden filled brightness? New things meaning university life and the things following it....everyone is looking forward to the start of school term...Maybe i am too....i dunno...but i'm in this box for too long...all my drive and passion has been drowned...i've become more timid...

I just hope that some things never change....

Like me and darling dear...

Like me and my dearie girlfriends...

Like me and my family...

AND

ME...MYSELF....

I've been trying to tell myself to be brave....to encourage myself...

I realised that everything is really fated....

Like i told chiu wah dearie....all these hurdles will make bonds become stronger...will make me cherish people around me more....precisely I dun meet darling dear often...tt's why i will cherish the time with him...if u can meet him everyday....after a

long time, u will jus take things for granted...

But no matter what happens...darling dear will always have a special place in my heart...with a lock but no key...cos i will wan it to always remain in my heart...maybe i have to learn to look at the big picture and take things at a time...but it does not means i will not make an effort to fight for the things i want...in fact...i'm holding on to the things which i cherish tighter as ever...

10:06 am

Monday, June 20, 2005

Why darling dear must stay in??????

I dun wan!!!!!!!

Miss you dear......='(

*sobz*

4:37 pm

I know it has been quite some time since i have update my blog....

is not exactly my life has been sooo boring that i have nothing to update about....it jus plain laziness...and i dun feel like...so pls pardon me my dears...

Today is the 1st day darling dear report for his new duty at bedok camp after such a long leave....i'm still dunno he's staying in or out...but i hope it will be the latter...but anyways, if is the former, den i jus haf to adjust and plan my schedule accordingly...which will be even more so when uni starts....

I miss those days where i can meet him everday....call him anytime i wan....but nw he's back into army life le.....miss ya dear....

Ooo.....jus wana tell my dears that i'm going for my orientation camp..which is 4-6 july...yup yup...candy is doing more and more things that usually she wun do when there's a choice given...like going camps....staying in hostel....going overseas trips and stuff....camps has always been not much of a "yes" to her....all her dears will know...LOL....

I remembered my 1st camp was in pri sch....3 days 2 nites or 2 days 1 nite...can't remember le...but i cried at nite...cos home sick...lol....nw i'm going to try to live on my own...wat an irony....but candy wun cry le.....hahaha...

No matter wat lies in front of her....candy shall be strong and independent....no fear but courage and confidence....candy will try her best to be always

Don't Worry Be Happy..

And hw's all my dears?think i have quite neglected u all....sorry abt that....take cares....

LUV YA!!!!

10:54 am

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

It's a long long journey

Till I know whera I'm supposed to be

It's a long long journey

And I don't know if I can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes

I am lost and know that I must hide

It's a long long journey

Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent

Drifting on through empty shores

Wondering what's my purpose

Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry

I know you'll be standing by my side

It's a long long journey

And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands

I don't even know why

I do the things I do

When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul

Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey

Till I feel that I am worth the price

You paid for me on calvary

Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes

It feels like everything is out to make me lose control

Cause It's a long long journey

Till I find my way home to you ... to you

In Front lies so much obstacles....I do not know whether i can get it through...But I do not want to lose you on the way...I hope to walk with you through this difficult path....Please stay with me....Always....

11:14 am

Thursday, June 09, 2005

I was reading my shiyun dear and chiu wah dear blog before updating my blog...Seems that everyone has their own problems...someone got jealous of my shiyun gal..and went round gossiping abt her....seems like gals jus get jealous easily and dun seem to be able to tolerate other gals...bt seriously, there's always smth better than the other....we have to learn to appreciate ourselves and others too...nobody is perfect but they are wonderful in their own ways....

chiu wah dear is stuck in the dilemma whether to go SIM or shld continue to wait for NIE's reply....i dunno hw to help her...sry gal....but u can tok to me if u wan to...

And seems like i'm the only one who can view my blog...there's some problem which i dunno wat....

Jus to inform all my dears....i'll be staying in NTU hostel....I noe i'm not a hostel gal...but i dun wan to waste time communting....

I'm not reaching a balance....i can't spread my time evenly for work, for dear, for family and for bowls...my parents are unhappy i'm going out too often and being home late...which is nt exactly late...like 10 plus?But i understand that they are sad because they can feel that their daughter is slowly drifting away from them...when children grows up, thay always want to leave and venture on their own.....sometimes taking their parents for granted..i think is inevitable...but they will regret it when their parents are not around...i admit that i sometimes do take them for granted...i also understand that parents always want their children by their side...and to spend more time with them....there's no time where they will stop worrying for their own children...but sometimes i jus can't reach the balance...dear has this block leave now after BMT...i've been missing him out alot...so i wana try to spend as much time as i can with him...but at the same time, my parents are not happy with it...they wan me to spend time with them too...where there's training coming in to take up my time too...i have decided not to go on tue trainings...so as to accompany my mum...cos tue are her off days....i noe it will affect my perfomance and my chances of representing s'pore....bt i wan to assure my parents now....as i'll be staying in hostel...where there will be even time for them...i dunno am i doing this rite? but is smth i can do and i shld do...

9:37 am

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

yOz gals....I'm back from KL!!! Did you miss me?lol....well....the trip was not that bad...I had abit of shopping but din buy much things tho...well....sleep was definitely not enough...cos we played until very late and we had to wake up very early in the morning....so i looked super duper horrible now...with the dark circles and everything....and i'm tanned now....ARGH!!!....and i put on wEight le....ARGH!!!!!!! We get to eat cheap and good food for our dinner...well...on the 1st nite....we had kenny rogers for dinner...and is really cheap...so much cheaper than s'pore....den we had pizza hut...for 7 people, it only cost us ard s$25....so cHeap!!! coming up next.....is secret recipe....haha...quite reasonable...but the strawberry milkshake suxs....it's jus like the packet marigold strawberry milk that we used to drink....lol...can't really remember all...but i remembered i had sushi at a restoran called sushi king...well....it was quite nice...not that ex....and most importantly...they forget to charge me my califonia roll......hahaha....i zuan dao....hahaha...

I hate the fact that when all my collegues say i looked more tanned and red now.....ARGH!!!! Chiu wah also says that i have more freckles now...=(

The weather there is crazy!!!Far worse than S'pore....is so hot!!!! In addition.....for the 1st half an hour....the sun is scorching hot!!!! Den, for the next half an hour...it can rain heavily....or even slight drizzle....it jus come and go...terrible......amAzingly...i din fall sick.....

I reached home at 9.30pm last nite....but actually the estimated arrival time at s'pore is 7.30pm!!! So wat happened???

Let me tell u....firstly our departure time was delayed...from 2.30 pm to 2.45pm i guess...around there...then...the driver was quite slow...and we stayed at yong peng to buy stuff...then....when we finally reached s'pore customs....we need to get our passports checked....and we need to queue up to have our luggage screened....sp that took us anther 30-45 mins?Finally...we are back on the coach....ming li dear asked me why the traffic light is red? i din noe either...den i got to realised why later...cos some stupid guy lost his BLUE SLING BAG...which contains 4 passports and 1 hp....so the police came to our coach and search for it...it doesn't mean that he suspects us...but jus a routine check...there's another 2 coaches behind us too...which is also being checked...den they found nothing...they checked our bags...and all the sling bags....found nothing...we were told of the incident...so everyone offered their help in the bus...den we were asked to unload all our luggage...the police checked our luggage ONE BY ONE!!!So we have to unzip all the luggage and let it be checked....I was like Oh Man! i still have work tmr...i dun wish to reach home late...AND each of us have at least 2 luggage...there's 24 pple...so it makes up to 48 luggagges at least...it will take half a day man....den when it was about my turn...someone shouted that the bag was found....whew! at least it put a stop to all the checking....we could go....we din noe where it was found...the police din say....but pls dun let me noe tt he found in his own bag or smth liddat.....i'll kill him....luckily edmund's dad send me home...so everything became easier...thank you so much!!!

But i learned alot and seen alot of things from this trip....both happy and sad...but i dun wan to include it in the blog.....if u wana noe...can come ask me....

To mings dear, christian kor, huishan dear, edmund and deardear : I'm not saying that i'm giving up lawn bowls....i'll see how things goes.....is not that i'm against anybody.....or trying to spite anybody...or being emotional.....is jus that it will not be my priority....if my time table allows...and i can manage, i'll definitely go down for training....going down to train jus have a different meaning le....i'm trying to correct my delivery and to polish my skills...and cos of my interest for this game...i'm definitely not up to standard for SEA games this yr....it jus not to lose touch with this game....

11:52 am