Monday, September 26, 2005
busy busy busy...assignments assignments and assignments...quiz quiz and quiz....tt's uni life i guess....well....trying to clear my work these days....darling dear has been very busy too....为他心疼....always work until so late and cannot sleep...he even have to sacrifice his weekend for the store....sighs...jiayou my dear!!!! Must take cares ks.....
From my last post can see i'm upset but i'm fine nw...getting cool abt meetings and stuff...at least i know the bottomline is that he still wana meet me..hee...=)
“两情若是长久时，又岂在朝朝暮暮？”
7:56 pm
Saturday, September 17, 2005
i noe all my frens tell me is no big deal...tell me nt to think so much...i tell myself if he's happy and i'll be happy too...imagining the happy look on his face...imagining him laughing loudly and happily...den all the more i shld nt stop him....i noe he wun haf dis kind of laughter in camp...even he does is nt often...being with me...i dun c tt laughter too...so maybe i shld let go...dun be so zhi zhuo abt it...but all dis are li xing de xiang fang...toking to frens jus brings out my li xing de yi mian...bt my heart does nt feel the same....i feel horrible...cos i would hafta wait 4 another wk...and mabbe is jus only one meeting day...ya...betta than nth...bt the thing is he wana haf more space...dun wan to meet me as often anymore....does tt mean he dun care as much?My mind tells me the ans is no.....is this stupid battle between my mind and my heart again! Argh!!! I dunno wat to do! hw to calm myself dwn?hw 2 make myself happier?hw nt to think abt it?
i noe he wun get to c dis...cos he neva reads my blog unless i ask him...
9:02 am
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Today....started reading my notes for translation...gonna start doing it soon...i have 5 assignments at hand nw...sighs....tt's like one per module...and kena chosen somehw dunno hw....the prof of one the module emailed me and asked me to do presentation during tutorial nxt fri...sighs....tt's like adding on my workload....
darling dear had nites out 2nite...went at 6.45pm and met him at bedok 4 dinner....miss him badly dis days so was quite happy to c him 2nite...hee....but nw start to miss him again...well....is okay...the miss is jus smth u will always do when he's nt by ur side....does nt mean die die mus c him kind...lol....i guess is natural....do u agree?
9:31 pm
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Actually, come to think of it...i think many people will think that complaining is normal rite?i'm sure everyone has complained before....why do we complain?Is it because we are not satisfied with our life?Or is it because we hafta do smth which is not convienient for us and is out of our comfort zone?Is it good to complain?is complaining justifiable? I saw my past posts...some are complaints and some are posts which is actually meant for myself...in the sense to encourage myself or things liddat...weiting says blogging is bo liao....but shiyun dear blogs often....one pt about blogging is that i can noe abt my friends' life as i dun see them often....but what do pple usually blog abt?their life?complaints?philosophy of life?or bible?or other stuff?Are we always content with our life?i think the ans will most likely be no....but we shld be content with life rite?
In order to cope with life....we have to face different obstacles in life....and try to overcome it....there are pple who are optimistic and there are pple who are pessimistic....i always tot i'm the former...but sometimes i'm becoming the latter....
因为一个冲动的决定，让我经历了一场无聊的闹剧。我被我的一个好友唤醒，让我不再自卑自怜，让我意识到其实我还不够坚强，我其实还是很受保护的。经历这场闹剧后，我应该学习尝试更理智地去处理事情。我也许慢慢变得越来越感情用事了。不该再像水龙头那样，轻易地落泪。
I think ultimately is normal to complain but most importantly must noe when to stop and noe how to fix the problem....must noe hw to stand up from where u fell....always seek help when u can't cope...cos 旁观者清，当局者迷！
12:44 pm
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Today, during my understanding chinese cinemas, i watched an interesting film by Royston Tan. He's a very young local director, only 29 years old but he had won several international and local film awards. In this film, the characters are only 15 yrs old and is about gangsters. So i hear gangster chant, with lots of vulgarities and some scences quite er...cos they show hw to pierce their lips and how they trying to get the drugs out of their stomach cos they smuggle drugs frm malaysia to s'pore...abit of sexual stuff...queer theory...cos got abit of gay element. But when is shown in s'pore two yrs or one yr ago, 25 scenes were cut and is R21. But i watched the uncut version...So actually is pointless when u watched this film in s'pore...anyways, the characters are not actors but they are just playing themselves...after this film and was cut by the s'pore censorship board, royston tan made another short film "CUT" to make fun of the s'pore censorship board as they cut out so many scenes of the film...it was quite funny...when they made fun of the lady who is working in the censorship board and was responsible for cutting of films. The guy in the film "CUT" was teasing this lady and he said so u think by watching lesbians kissing in the movie, i'll become a lesbian???? i think u can only cut films to a certain extent but not too much...
10:27 pm
Long time neva blog le...cos smth wrong with my blog....but thanks to my cheryl baby....she helped fixed it....hee....so nw i'm blogging again....really like this blog skin...is pink...is sweet and i like the song...been trying to find a new blogskin at the website but din c any really nice ones as compared to this one...maybe i'm just toooo picky....lol....but anyways, so happpy when is fixed....
So hw's everybody?how are you all doing?pls tag ks....hee...take cares....let's meet up some time soon ks...miss all of ya lots....
11:39 am
